So my life in the last week has taken me for a spin, i have learn many things about myself, more like rethinking some things about myself, im in those years where you are trying to find a closer relationship with yourself trying to find who you are and why you do the things you do, just all around curious, about anything and everything.
1st- i am trying to find my relationship with God not just a religion. i want a close bond with God something that i have truly not had before. I have always been a Christian but I was looking at it in a way that it is just something for me its just what i am supposed to do and i don’t want to think about it that way anymore, i want to love him with my whole heart and know that for sure the feeling in my heart is for God.
2nd- i have been trying to find the real meaning of love, kindness, caring. What do those mean to me, and do i expect them in a relationship, in any relationship. If I give them away do I expect them back? And what happens if I give them away and don’t get them back? Do I get hurt? What if I didn’t give those away, would I be harming myself or other people?
3rd- i wanna find out everything about myself and others. i know that sounds brainless, but its the truth, i find myself being more and more curious about everyone and everything lately that it is absurd! i just wanna know everything i am kinda like that tiny kid that is always asking there parents "what is this, what is that, why is this, what does that do?" i amaze myself with how i find such little discoveries so wonderful. to myself i do sounds like a 5 year old but i guess i don’t mind. Being curious and innocent is what i do best.(innocence is bliss) I love how I can figure things out that most people don’t even take the time to think about.
Those are just the few things that I have been struggling with and thought that a quick blog might help me out. :]
live life. love God.
