So the other day i was thinking about people, and i find many people to be
attention seeking. Now really who doesn't
love a little attention. Even those kids that sit in the corner because they are too shy or are affraid of attention. and i think that
the reason for most of our reactions are because of or are for attention.
When you think of attention seekers most of us prolly think of the pigs of
guys that shout at girls, of the
drama queen who does things just to make you look at her, maybe the kid who thinks making fun of someone
makes them cooler, but for me i think of the people who
don't get enough attention. The kid who is depressed and
cuts themselves, the boy who sits by
himself at the lunch table, the person who is
affraid of the world, or the girl who looks for attention from boys for the lack of attention she get else where.
Where does the
lack of attention come from? Part of me thinks it is their fault, now now,
calm yourself let me explain. I think that for me little things are my attention
fixes. Examples!: my dad made me
mickey mouse pancakes the other day and then then said that once he sold the snowmobile that he could pay for me to see my
wonderful sister and brother. Which i understand prolly wont happen but i don't mind just him
thinking of me makes me feel like
i am important to him. My mother is always trusting me and telling me things that she says she "shouldn't be telling me" but it shows
she loves me and
trusts me with things. She also does things like remembering how much i like bigger
meat chunks in my spaghetti and when i look down at my bowl filled with oodles of noodles and see the massive meat chucks it makes me feel
warm and
fussy inside. And my sister (or sister in law, i know, i just think its cool to have a sister) her being able to hang with someone
my age and not act any different and
trust me with the things she has problems with makes me feel like we
actually are
sisters and it was always like that, and nothing could change that. And my friends help me alot, they are always showing me how much they care about me and just laughing with them shows me how much they want to see me be happy.:] i think if people looked at life in a different
prespective things would look alot better.
Then there is
another part of me that makes me think it is the families fault. I see things like a mother caring more about her
furnature then her own
daugther and that hurt me i can't imagine how that makes her feel. I also see things like
sexual abuse by someones family and things like teasing taken another level. and what do you do about things like that? There is not much to do to
prevent things like that, other then learning from mistakes of others and following god. maybe not this one is just lose, its hard to blame families?
ya know, ya know?Another part ( yes the is lots to me) thinks that it is the
day and age we live in. You can't talk to someone, go on the computer, turn on the radio, look at your cell phone
without seeing or hearing something sad or
bad. it puts a damper on your day and makes our out look on things change. If all you see out there is bad something that might actually be good might also seem bad, and if that is how people see things is in a negative way, it doesnt help anyone. More examples you say? of course i will give you
examples! :] like early freshman year i got in a little pit of
self pity, well i guess it wasn't so little. (Pity parties are stupid when they go on for a long periods of time, just to let ya no. ) And all i saw was
bad so when someone would give me a compliment it make my self confidence trip down into a abis of self conscious.It was because i thought they were
making fun of me or trying to
hurt me in some way and this was because all i saw was
bad, and it was sad for me but i got over it and now i see things in a
different light. Seeing the
Happieness in things makes us see that all the attention we need is in little things like the people that you may find a little
annoyying that you wake up to in the morning, or the friends that
surround you that make you feel like you can concore the world and the greatest one of all the king that is always watching you and gracing you with the gift of life each and every morning. Things like that can change you and the world around you.
ANY WHO! what i am trying to say is people we have to see things in a
positive light rather then be a little miss
rain clouds in my pants, and start seeing yourself as important and that you get attention in millions of small ways rather then
getting attention in only the ways you want. :]]]
live life. love god.
